My first post! Hooraaayyy!!!
After created this blog for... errr... 8 months ago (sigh!), I finally have this urge to post something.
So, hi there my online diary, it feels a little bit weird since I've never wrote -not a single page- journal in real life and yet, now I have to publish it online.
At first I'm a bit hesitant to write my day, feelings, thoughts, whatsoever because to be honest, I don't like to share anything, especially my story. I prefer play "hey-I'm-a-very-outgoing-person-with-bubbly-personality-and-I-don't-hid-any secret-from-you"-thingy. I like to pretend as an extrovert person because people will not busy sniffing my business if they thought I already tell them everything about me, just like the way I pretend about confidence, but deep down inside I'm still the shy-insecure-awkward-girl, the girl I used to be 21 years ago (damn, I'm old!). As you know, the best hiding place is in a plain sight. But lately..., I'm exhausted, suffocated and I feel like I'm going to explode.
Actually my twitter is my first brutally honest journal (oh dear, how many times I rant with a very hurtful things I've said? I apologize) but for the love of God, it helps. For those who know me personally knows my bad temper, my stressful to lose weight, the clown in me, my bad health condition, my love about food & cooking, my passion about fashion, my unhealthy shopping habit, the shoe-hoarder me, my expertise to irritate people (based on my sister's confession), my bad habit to hold pee (too much information?), my insomniac, how I can't live without music, my addiction about foreign movies (and always want to live abroad), how I trapped in cartoon-palooza since I'm a kiddo and can't find the way out, my latest obsession about makeup and how I TALK TOO MUCH when I'm nervous!
This blog is my journal, I might write about beauty, fashion, food/recipe A LOT, but don't jump out of your seat when my tantrum is taking over and you see the back side of the moon in me. This is me, hoping to relief my pain (in hopes of not sounding too emo *LOL*) and trying to spill my secret....
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* Edit:
I just realize that my first post (this one), posted on 11/1/11! How cool is that?! Of course it'll be epic if I post it on 11/11/11, but what the heck, mine is pretty awesome too!
